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Don's back home now. I wish he wasn't. I wish he was here with me. Or I was over there with him. But it's not like that right now. And even though we see each others again in about 3 weeks, it looks far away still. I know I used to complain a bit about how it was way to warm when I was sleeping with him, cause he produces so much heat. But now it feels like I need it. I've gotten used to have him sleeping close, next to me. It's going to be weird sleeping alone tonight. Though at least I got my teddy bears. He gave me 2 teddy bears for Valentine's day <3 One's white with red writtings 'I <3* you' everywhere. And the other one is red, with white hearts all over, and he holds a white heart into its hand saying 'Always and Forever'. I really like them. Plus they smell exactly like him, since I asked Don to give me his adidas cologne, so I could put some on them. It comforts me when I walk into my room and it smells like him. Sort of makes me feel as if he was here just a few seconds ago. I just really miss him right now <3
Today, right before we went to the bus station, we stopped at Future shop to look at the MP3 players, since I wanted to buy one. We found a few and actually one that had a descent price for the amount of space on it. Don ended up buying it for me. He's way too nice to me =x.x= LOL But I'm going to pay him back. Then after when he left, mom and I headed to the mall. We wandered around, she ended up buying me a new watch... that cost her like 95$ =x.x= She said it was my Valentine's day gift. It's really beautiful. All silver and the interior it's pink but with a small orange-like reflection. After we went around the mall to look for some pants for me. I need classic-like ones. Basically no jeans, just black. Well we found some really nice ones, black with really thin white lines on them. So I got 2 of those, and also 2 tank top that go behind the neck. One black and one brown. I remember Don liked those kinds a lot on me. And I think they do look pretty on me. Aaannnd. I got this really pretty beige shirt. With long sleeves, but the collar... it's not really a collar since it actually reveals my shoulders a bit. But it's really classy-chic like. I think. Well it looks that way to me. I believe mom got herself some earrings and a necklace. I'm not sure. Well none the less, I come back home around 5pm with a few bags. It was a succesful day of shopping. And it changed my mind too. Because usually when Don leaves, I get back home right away, then into my room and I just can't help trying not to cry. Though with the shopping it kept my mind busy for a while. So that's good I guess. Though it doesn't change the fact that when I walked into my room after shopping, I felt empty. And when I think about him my heart stretch, like if I'm hurt or something. But in the end I think these feelings are worth it. Because when I'm with him it feels like my world make sense now again. But now I'm tried. So I'd better get some sleep. I have school tomorrow *blah* and I need some sleep.
Luff-luff! *<3*
Ayu~
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